Friday 24 May 2013

MY DIARIES :2 MISSING YOU!



Mercy me Lord! Why am I so confused....?
Please solve all the confusions in my life to give me a better insight...
And God wonders that my dear child your insight is getting better and better because of this confusion lead by me in your life.
Why do you think I am writing this,
 is this also because of some confusion...?
May be yes...Or otherwise...Still life remains with my confused attitude to survive.





When do you feel you miss someone...?
How do you feel when you miss someone?


Better not answer this as I remember that when I was barely grown up enough to understand people and relations, I had many accounts of events falling in line to remind me always of me being a person understanding beyond my level of thinking and my age. I had been facing this problem of missing people and things a lot..May be its because I had developed some connections with them or probably I have lost  all the connections with them.
Sometimes yes I felt disgusted but they were some lessons of lifetime. I know better now how to react and how to act at the same time.
But whatsoever I think the truth remains and that is we miss some people when they are highly needed.
According to some known facts people form part of a great journey called life and they throughout the life meet and depart , Although  this are two totally contradicting things.
I want to give you an instance of how much I miss being in life and alive is when  am alone I often try to sing my heart out loud because that's what I am missing the music in my life, sounds strange isn't it...!
School, College, Academy, Clubs, Society etc We have so many institutions around us to meet newer and newer people in life and make memories with them. But few remain undying and safe in memories.
Although we have small incidences of giving someone some memories, we all make some impact in some one's life by the same means of life and incidences of life and that too without knowing the person at all. Many people just understand simple language of expressions, some expression of some people in your life let you remember them throughout your life.
If this is not seeming true then try and remember one incidence where you did not smile when a small child passing by held your fingers and looked up to you straight in your eyes, and don’t you remember the expression of your irate teacher who punished you for not getting your assignment done, or the expression on the face of your parents when you got your degree in your hands, so we all remember these instances and that too with a smile.  Expression is a language to speak.

Express when you feel that the right moment to say is now or never.
 Missing you or missing it is not just the right words always.



When you are happy then please remember that not all are so happy, quite common notion is to see someone smile and smile so spread the good things whenever you are happy.
Not only are you responsible for maintaining the balance of nature and earth but also the balance of human life events.


















Wednesday 3 April 2013

MY THOUGHTS: MY DIARY: AM I BEAUTIFUL.....?

MY THOUGHTS: MY DIARY: AM I BEAUTIFUL.....?: This phrase we come across many times...but its always asked a question? Why does this question arise...? Don't you know yourself...

MY DIARY: AM I BEAUTIFUL.....?



This phrase we come across many times...but its always asked a question?
Why does this question arise...?
Don't you know yourself..why aren't you beautiful or why are you beautiful..?
I haven't read any definition as of yet as to what being beautiful is like.
According to me God made us all beautiful or ugly ..and all of the same kind,
Why would he make a difference in his  own creation.
I believe its we who have drawn these lines of beautiful and ugly.
I am not beautiful if I am not the one who believes the nature and always think that man is above the nature.
No I am not ugly because God has bestowed upon me the best qualities of being humble, of being, humane, of being caring and loving.
If I wasn't beautiful then how could I bend down to pick up someone who has just fallen down , and how could  I have made the best friends I have made If I wasn't beautiful.
They love me for what I am , they love me for the way I am and hence I am beautiful in my own way.
Beauty isn't mind, beauty isn't mind , and beauty isn't talent or wealth .Beauty is of the soul and of the heart you have .
I have beautiful heart and soul if  I help others , if I make someone laugh, if I love someone, if I I care for others...need not this be the definition of being beautiful.
All is better if  I have love to be myself and not the one who I customized as per your wish.Then I will not be that beautiful as essentially as I should have been.
Beauty is the word associated with my soul and with your soul.
Now if I make you happy am I beautiful...? ....certainly not because if I am not happy to make you happy then I am not being beautiful.
To be beautiful is to smile with a smiling heart ...your heart and my heart smiling at the sunrise and at the sunset.
Beautiful things are made by God not humans. And If I don't smile seeing his beautiful creation when a small flower blooms ,the sky when the drop of rain touches my face I am certainly not seeing beautiful things around me..
Carry on the life being grumbling about heaven ...and not touching the wet sand on the blue sea to know what heavens feel like...
to be continued.....surely because its not yet over...



Wednesday 27 March 2013

MY THOUGHTS: LIFE

MY THOUGHTS: LIFE: When do you think is the first time you laughed after you were born, and when do you think is the last when you will laugh your heart out...

LIFE









When do you think is the first time you laughed after you were born, and when do you think is the last when you will laugh your heart out. You don’t know this neither I know it. So ultimately we all know is how much we can laugh and how much we can make others laugh so …why don’t just have it all ……rather than finding the right times and making plan for everything  . Just have this laughter anywhere you want. Don’t endorse yourself to time make time for yourself. Live it for yourself some day and you will know it how interesting life can be..!
What is that you want for yourself....”ek nayi zindagi”…forgetting about the one which you are holding in your hands .Wrong option dude “pehle isko to Jee lo”….Life can be anything from hell to heaven depends on your approach and aim in life.
Living is not the only end for some...For some existing and for some it’s just surviving. Everyone has one moment of truth where they realize that this was not what they wanted from their life or vice versa. 

Life is all about having the  loved ones around you . living with them , giving them unconditional love and support.  See yourself when you have everything  and see yourself when you don't have anything in life. Find out who can stay with you when you are alone and have nothing and  those who are around you when you have everything. Keep those  ones who were with you in all times good and bad nearer and wipe off the latter ones gradually.
because when you will be around half bald and weak and need support , the ones who were with you unconditionally will love you unconditionally and will keep up to you always. 
Kitni lambi hai zindagi meri mujhe usse koi matlab nhi 
Kitni raate aur kitne din kaate maine mujhe uski koi parvah nahi ..
agar meri galtiyon se tumhe shikwa hai mujhse to mujhe maaf kar dena , 
Kyunki mere dost tum mere saath nhi honge to  is baat se mujhe fark padega,
 meri paravah bhi na  karo tum,  par mujhe tumhare saath ka hamesha intzaar rahega.

Mujhe mili jab inayat khuda ki, mujhe mila zindagi ka tohfa, 
Khuda bhi ho utha ruasa jab maine nhi kiya iska koi fikra,,bas jiya bas jiya nhi kucch kiya.
Mere liye khuda maine tere liye. 
Jiya to par muskuraya nhi, jiya to par aasu ek bahaya nhi, mila jab firse kismat se tab pucha usne kyu 
ab kya chahte ho,
Maine kaha  bas itna chahata hu ...ek bar firse jina chahta hu.
Ek baar firse jina chahta hu.

Monday 25 March 2013

Death be not proud.....

 Life always don't  always gives you a chance to know a person twice.It holds the most important moments to be break free and unplanned. Many people just come in to your life to create impact,but you take them randomly and keep building a contact to live long  with them ( or their memories)  unknowingly.
One day you were here and you gave me my new contact to be my brother standalone not real blood but with real love. I had found in you my friend, my brother and  above all a good human being.
You seemed to be such a irritating one when you teased me and made fun of me ...and above all I loved it when you played with me and I would always remember you playing with me and not irritating me.
You always loved to make people smile like the way you made me the clown to make me smile but I can never forget that spirit  you carried of carefree laughter and  fun.
But the moreover you have also given me the memories which I don't find musing and I never thought that you would go away suddenly and give me no chance to meet up.
May be you  don't wanted to kid me this time didn't seemed so much irritating and went away leaving a whole lot of memories only.
I miss you and not those memories.I have them all only them now with me. Truly missing you Bhavesh Bhai.... And death is not the one who can make people apart its the time who plays its role and  there we are helpless and emotionless ready to move on in life as soon as we fall.

Monday 4 March 2013

MY THOUGHTS: Randoms.

MY THOUGHTS: Randoms.: NIGHT AND DREAMS. My dreams are a picture of my imagination. They give me my way to the possibilities,to hopes, to power to imagine...